Life.......

Listening Angel on my favourite radio station. So much thoughts flashing into my mind...Wondering am I happy for the past 25 years? How you feel to be happy? What is that feeling like?

I can't feel it. I can't see it in my life ....Life is just a drama. Smile to put on an act that I am happy. ....they will never know the deep inside of me..

I am so lonely..

After 12 midnight will be my mum 10th year anniversary. I really miss her. I miss the love that she gave me. She make me realise what is happiness.

Since after she passed away, I tend to be more reserved. I seldom talk to my family. Everyone in the family treated me like a stranger. We dont't seem to know each other . They live by their own. Properly because our parent are not with us.I feel like I am an orphan. I am not really that strong, I am scared...I scared of loneliness....

If I could, ever have a chance to tell this to my mum...

I didnt forget about you.I still blame myself for not staying one more night with you. If I could, I will still be able to stay with you abit longer. It's been so long and I can remember every moment that I am with you....

Those days we went to have our breakfast before my school start..

Those days that I spend my night at hospital with you..

Whenever I want something, you never say a no to me..

You always will be in my heart..

I love you..you make me smile and realise what is happiness....