I am not longer who I am ...

He start to find me nuisance. He told me that he really don't know he will stay with me for long term a not.

Reasons : We have different view on certain issue. I am stubborn and I stand on my view.

My friends feel that I changed. I disappointed them and I am not longer who I used to be before.

Reasons : Time spending with them getting lesser, mind is all over of him.

I did asked myself before, " Friend or love ?" I choose friend cos I love them.

Now ask myself again, " Friend or love ? " I am doubt, both seems so important to me . I can't lost him and I can't lost my friend either.

Well, I wish I can balance my life well.

Who I am tonight ?

I am a party goers. Going to the most happening party spot to destress myself.

I don't get it...

I just don't know why. Why is just so difficult to meet up or rather that person doesn't want to meet up. I can't read people mind, and I don't get it!!!

Maybe he / she should tell me straight so that I won't feel like an idiot keep asking for nothing.

Regret...

I text to him this morning:

" Don't know why I suddenly miss you a lot. Most probably is because that I am not meeting you tonight. Darling, you know I really love you so much till I can't believe myself."

His replied:

" Like what I said before, I am not handsome but I am attractive. Haha.. you've fallen on my hand. "

I am so regret.